Day 1

Day 1

Friday, April 8, 2011

Need a boost

Ok, so I gave myself permission to rest for 2 days, Wed and Thurs...thinking that by Friday, I should be feeling pretty good and can get some things done.  Wrong.  I am so tired, so weak, and so unmotivated it is scary.  I have no "umphh" to do anything.  I feel like a slug.  I want to clean the house, naahhh.  I want to organize my office, naahhh.  I am forcing myself to blog right now, in hopes that something will click with me and tada, I will be motivated.  I usually go go go go, this is so unlike me.  I have not taken any pain med since Wed night, trying to stay off of it, fearful that if I took it now, I would just stay in bed all day.  I have been reading the last 2 days, but not even motivated to do that.  It is a beautiful day outside, hmmm...what the hell is wrong with me?  Do I just give in and lay around like a lazy slug?  Or do I force myself to get up and do something?  Certainly do not like this feeling.  I want to feel better, feel positive, have energy...I guess that will come, but when?  I am actually having a hard time taking in enough liquids, ironically, it is easier to just not eat.  It makes me feel depressed.  Is this normal?  Do I just need to be patient?  I think I am going to take a nap and try to start over.  Only thing I can think of to do right now.  This sucks.  Hopefully I will barely remember it someday.  Feel like Debbie Downer...

Peace and Health,
Melissa

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