Ok, so I gave myself permission to rest for 2 days, Wed and Thurs...thinking that by Friday, I should be feeling pretty good and can get some things done. Wrong. I am so tired, so weak, and so unmotivated it is scary. I have no "umphh" to do anything. I feel like a slug. I want to clean the house, naahhh. I want to organize my office, naahhh. I am forcing myself to blog right now, in hopes that something will click with me and tada, I will be motivated. I usually go go go go, this is so unlike me. I have not taken any pain med since Wed night, trying to stay off of it, fearful that if I took it now, I would just stay in bed all day. I have been reading the last 2 days, but not even motivated to do that. It is a beautiful day outside, hmmm...what the hell is wrong with me? Do I just give in and lay around like a lazy slug? Or do I force myself to get up and do something? Certainly do not like this feeling. I want to feel better, feel positive, have energy...I guess that will come, but when? I am actually having a hard time taking in enough liquids, ironically, it is easier to just not eat. It makes me feel depressed. Is this normal? Do I just need to be patient? I think I am going to take a nap and try to start over. Only thing I can think of to do right now. This sucks. Hopefully I will barely remember it someday. Feel like Debbie Downer...
Peace and Health,
Melissa
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